this song..

it was only until today tt i fully understand the meaning behind this song..

before tt, i didn't give much thought to the lyrics of this song.. as always.. i usually listen to the tune only..

and so.. now i think tt this song is nice.. an excellent song!

maybe i should understand the songs i listen to next..

it's jus so amazing.. so amazing how songwriters detail whatever in a song they write..

admire these people.. especially writer-singers..

Miluji te, Vinz

to all of you

you know, whenever i think of this, i will start to get moody..

time really flies..

it seems only yday when you all were running the annual camp last may.. seems only yday when you all went thru the intensive one week filled with camps and courses last june.. bla bla bla..

at a blink of an eye, you all are gg to concentrate on your national exams soon.. in me, it's a kinda of very weird mixed feelings..

there are times i feel i owe you all something.. much could have been done to unleash all of your potentials.. but then in the reality of this world, there are limitations..

a big sigh..

what i could have done.. these "takes time, and it's not gg to happen overnight".. it might take months or even years.. we need to build up some things.. i alone is unable to do so.. i have experienced how tiring it is..

there ought to be a team.. a team of mid-levels..

my feelings.. who can really understand how i am feeling?

A la prochaine, Vinz

if you every realise.........

irrational..

i think i acted irrationally this morning..

woke up at 7am.. thought of coming to school early to do some readings etc..

but unknowingly, plans changed when i switched on my lappy after washing up..

and so i stayed at home till 9+ (my usual timing to go out for a 10am lesson)..

i thought i should be early for class since i woke up early.. but end up i was late for class for 3 minutes..

nvm the change of plans, i am okay with tt actually :))

some ppl are simply 不自动..

nuff said..

this is nus..

guess what's wrong with these two pictures?

doing your part..

been thinking abt some things since last saturday.. 

you see.. attended some symposium last saturday.. it was supposed to be a whole day event, but i left after the introduction.. i would say i wasted my time there.. i felt there was something hidden.. hidden agenda.. and tt emcee was irritating.. who cares about what you did the night before and how little sleep you had.. so you think you have been dragged? tt aside, i also felt tt they were being religious.. turned me off..

anyway, back to topic.. helping others and environment..

tt grp tt organised the symposium.. their business is to build homes for people in one of the asian countries, transforming slums into proper housing villages.. (when i say business, it's not tt kinda profit-making business i am talking abt..) there is a singapore branch of this grp, and i could see some singaporeans (jus a convenient term in this context) working towards achieving the goal of the group - to build a better life for ppl in tt asian country..

indeed, it's a good thing to do.. but you know, i was thinking.. these singaporeans can go all the way out to help other ppl, but what about ppl from your own country? shouldn't the latter be helped first? i am puzzled by these ppl from this local branch of the group.. okay.. what i had put across is flawed.. but you roughly know what i am trying to say bahs.. perhaps.. it's again the classic case of limited resources.. and with tt, priority comes into the picture.. what say u?

moving on.. ENVIRONMENT.. environment has been my concern since a long time ago.. shan't say so much.. i  am leaving whoever reading this with these two ideas.. 

1. read the papers today and one particular line in the saturday special really affected me.. it reads sth like "our Earth is sick.. let's do our part to help it, no matter how tiny it is".. 

2. waste is jus a resource at the wrong place at the wrong time.. if we know how to make use of it, it can be a valuable resource.. don't you think so?

no effort is too small as there is this saying in chinese: 积少成多.. don't underestimate the power of this saying.. if everyone on the Earth (in singapore only also can) gives me 1 cent, look at how much i have got.. lols..

decide for yourself what you can do! :)

eq ling dan..

you did it again.. so what's next from you?

what you did jus reinforce your image in me tt you have zero ling dan gosong EQ..

i hate it when i saw what you said of my juniors.. hate it when you don't show ppl due respect.. and many many more..

the culture is there.. you don't come in and try to set your own culture..

are you a typical case of study too much tt when it come to common sense things, you seem to lost the ability to think..

shoo~

on another note.. i shall treat this thing as jus a roadblock we always face in life..

happy :)

i feel happy tonight!! :D

is it fate? it's really amazing.. you see, it would not have happened this evening because it was something which i don't usually do.. 

it's jus a press of a button on the computer screen and things jus set off.. of course, after i pressed the button, i was hoping and hopping as well.. 

it seems crazy to be still up at this hour coz it's gonna be long day today - lesson at 10, briefing at 2 and the last lesson ends at 9pm.. but who cares anyway? 欢喜就好..

i am trying to find a picture tt will totally describe everything.. seems hard to find..

happy is happy.. but with tt, i am thrown into a state of confusion.. how?

degenerating moral values?

mum tok to me abt something last evening..

what she said was kinda expected coz i heard my parents discussing abt sth a few days ago..

shan't be explicit about what is it abt.. but from the conversation, i began to wonder.. have (moral) values degenerated alr? 

you see.. it's sth which should be frowned upon.. but obviously it wasn't the case.. in fact, i would say what had happened was/has been much celebrated upon? :O

you see, i always thought the reactions from the elders would be of the reprimanding side.. thus, i was quite shocked when my mum told me abt the reactions of the elders..

and there's something which made me mad.. one of the elders actually went on to compare this kinda thing.. the way she said it, it's as if what had happened is something to be very proud of.. i wonder.. where are the values.. isn't the elder supposed to discourage such stuffs? i am left puzzled..

all these years, this elder has been doing all sorts of comparisons.. she had compared my sec sch results, my o level results, me being able to advance from poly to uni, what i study in uni and what not.. my summer jobs were also not spared, to some extent.. sometimes i dun really like these comparisons, but they are still kinda fine to me.. but tt comparison she made abt what had happened, wah piangs..

so.. we shall see how this incident unfolds the next few months.. 

Hello 2010!

Happy New Year! 

as usual let's see the past year in retrospect..

jan i received my posting and it was my first choice - HSS! it was a mixture of feelings.. u know u know, the feeling of how it's gonna be like after 7 years since graduating from there..

feb reported to my sec sch - the start of another journey with my alma mater.. went for an agm, tt agm was a joke.. yea, absurd!

mar  18th march - it was a nice one.. :)

apr busy busy busy!

may the long awaited holidays! finally back again to my unit.. started to observe things which i weren't able to for the past three months or so.. 

jun had area-based activities.. i must say tt i am proud of my cadets.. they were, in line with the name of the campsite! the feedbacks i received was also positive! tt aside, i was also disappointed.. disappointed in myself due to some things that happened.. 

amidst these activities, i had started work again - with the same company.. my first major task was the supervision of exams.. for two weeks, 20 sessions of exams.. it was no joke.. however, i grew to enjoy the invigilation! all sorts of people i could see during the exam sessions.. people who didn't bring stationeries, identity card; people who brought food in; and some super weird candidates who behaved like primary school kids! c'mon.. their level is university, pursuing at least a bachelor's degree.. amused..

jul i guess i was too silly.. or were you jus too nice a friend? and so you went to the kangaroo land to embark on a new journey.. 

aug start of another semester.. overloaded this semester with 6 modules (24 modular credits).. the 6th mod has a dual function - to catch up on the progress (i only cleared 16MCs in my first sem in NUS) and to serve as a cushion for the rest of the mods.. 

towards the end of the month, i had a talk with someone.. this talk really amazed me - in a good way of course.. 

sep a semester filled with tonnes of projects.. almost all the mods require interviews with companies.. stunned..

it came to light tt i have not seen/noticed all my course mates before.. coz while doing duty on tt monday evening, two ladies went into the irc to photocopy the materials which dr teo told us to at the end of the lecture.. i was stunned for a moment.. in my mind i was thinking "eh how come nvr see you two before de"..

oct had a nice birthday! thanks to my wonderful friends mans :D it's very unique! 

15th oct - it was also a nice one :) in my mind i thought of something and it really happened! so much for fate :D

nov ditto april.. the busy period of the semesters.. even with the all the heavy workload towards the end of the sem, this month was also great.. :D 

dec holidays again! wait.. i had my first reservist during the first week of hols.. and so i was back to the home of the gunners.. i am always glad to be in the artillery formation.. you know, it's tt kinda feeling, tt kinda attachment which i can't really explain.. 

next up was atc the subsequent week.. the trainees were great mans! and the sharing sessions were always filled with learning opportunities.. get to know people - both new faces and people whom i had not talked to before.. scaling the team challenge pyramid was an accomplishment - though it was incomplete due to inclement weather.. 

this is undesirable..

this is what i hate:

i hate ppl who 无事不登三宝殿！ tt's enough said..

but over the years, i will jus think "just help lar, no harm"..

but what do i get? sometimes not even a thank you in return.. 

well, some ppl i feel they are too busy to keep in contact with you tt frequent.. tt's fine.. but some are simply bo chup.. these ppl are those who have no intention to keep in contact with you, until they need you.. am i right to say there are such people?

there are times when i message people.. but there ain't any reply from them.. dunno what's wrong.. over time, these people just go into the latter category i mentioned in the previous paragraph..

and then there are people who can don't message you for months and only until the release of exam results they come message you.. for obvious reason right? what's wrong? to me, they jus want to compare how you do against themselves? dunno what's wrong with such people..

shan't see this doctor again

hello people.. next time if i am sick.. please kindly remind me not to go to tt clinic at redhill (not making the name and location explicit in case kenna lawsuit)..

i am not gg there! i shouldn't have gone there in the first place today.. 

this doctor always dispense amoxicillin, and in the past, i told myself not to visit her again.. but dunno why i did so today.. maybe i am too sick and it didn't come across my mind..

i dun see in her the kinda image a doctor should have.. like jus want you to quickly get out of the consultation room liddat..

all i wanted was reassurance tt i am not down with what i thought so.. tt's the very reason i went to visit her! because i was feeling much better as compared to earlier on..

sick..

at this moment, i am feeling very sick now.. haiz..

it all began yday with an afternoon nap.. sleep halfway, sudden onset of fever..

i was recovering already last night and this morning.. but it got worse this afternoon.. why?

hope to recover soon! i wanna go investiture tomorrow!

however, i am suspecting something.. wait till i come back from the doctor's..

i am back liaos!

so tt was 4 days 3 nights of reservist..

first day of ict, the co straight away told us the dates for the next ict - it will be 7 months later.. so efficient right? it's gonna be a high key 2 weeks ict next july! :s

i think what i said during my active years still stands during reservist - if we were to cut down on the waiting time, the time we serve in the force would be greatly reduced! come to think of it.. about half of the time in this ict was spent waiting.. wait and wait..

other than tt, this ict was quite all right.. had some refreshment ops training.. didn't really take very long for flashbacks :)

the ippt this morning was really screwed up.. who the *&*(&(@ do 2.4km run at 1030 hours? c'mon, mr sunny was high up in the sky shining on us.. 'nuff said..

next week will be another 4 days 3 nights of camp.. this time round it's gonna be more hectic.. hope it will be all right :D

lazy day..

woke up very early - 6.45am - for ipc last morning.. it was quite a domino effect i would say.. because of tt, i slept at 11pm last night.. and dunno why, i woke up at 3+.. being not able to continue sleeping was not a good feeling mans.. drank some warm water and lied on bed..

so what did i do today? nothing much i would say.. filed my notes for this semester.. two files are not enough! hafta think of creative ways to file them all.. measurement notes have archival file yet.. maybe i should combine the two measurement modules notes into one file..

thought of whether to continue taking 6 mods next sem or not.. the 6th mod would most likely be a science gem.. quite a few choices - inside your pc, science of music or reporting stats in the media.. science of music seems interesting.. quite similar to what i had done in one of the courses in poly.. reporting states in the media seems useful and interesting also.. jus look at how sometimes the media can report things without thinking much..

went for my usual run again (didn't run yday).. nothing much already.. my speed has stablised.. so the next step would be to increase my distance.. but i won't be running tomorrow i guess.. or maybe i will be.. why?

will be gg for annual ict on tue.. i think this time round i am gonna wake up even earlier than i would yday.. maybe 5.45am? so many things to prepare mans!

i reckon i will be saving a great deal of money these two weeks.. 4 days in ict; another 4 days in atc.. all meals paid for.. i even get "paid" for it! lols.. we shall see eh?

what's up?

so today is the first day of sem break..

slept quite late coz i was watching online tv.. tt penguin show.. watched halfway then went to sleep, and woke up in the morning to continue watching for a while.. :D

done some preparation for reservist.. washed coverall, no.4; fetched other stuffs back home; conditioned my boots.. gonna do some shopping after ipc tomorrow..

went running again.. same route, same distance.. but this time round, my timing increased; speed decreased.. lazy to go calculate what's the decrease in my speed.. maybe 1 or 2 seconds i guess.. 

okies.. i think gotta prepare to go sleep le.. gonna reach hta at 8.45 tomorrow! meaning 7.30 must get out of house, 6.30 must wake up? :O

Vinz

at last..

(Waiouru - February 4 2007)

hohos.. finally done with exams for this sem!

sat right in front of the invigilator desk today.. hahas.. so how was the paper? all was okay i guess..

i did something not so smart today.. i wrote ten over lines of codes for what could be achieved by jus a few lines of codes only.. so dumb right.. all because i dunno if i can use " " as a parameter for String.split() or not.. argh! waste time.. if i hadn't done so, i could have left the hall sooner!

usual run again.. hahas.. this time round only my speed only improved by 2 seconds.. i think my speed is gonna drop when i increase my distance.. i am quite reluctant to up my distance for now.. :x

i guess it's good to run late in the evening.. coz lesser vehicles on the road = lesser harmful gases.. jus don't like to run in the park, going round and round - quite boring..

so what am i gonna do this hols? first two weeks got activities le..

first week - taken up by the army le..

second week - going pualu ubin for atc.. hopefully no sandfly bite or whatever nonsense..

thereafter, gonna dedicate time to do what i have been wanting to do le.. hahas!

Vinz

finished exams yet?

hahas.. will be having my last paper for this sem tomorrow evening!

but i doubt it's gonna make any difference in me.. coz i reckon tt when i put my pen down at 7pm tomorrow, i would be quite lost.. so..

watched 2012 today.. this show left me with alot of thoughts in my mind..

hmms.. stealth mode again eh? :S

anyway.. went for my run at 11pm again.. this time round my speed improved by 5 seconds! small improvement, but good enough for a start! :D

had banana today to replenish my energy.. in the form of banana + peach juice! sounds cool eh? maybe gonna drink it again tomorrow! :p

A la prochaine, Vinz

amazing feat..

yet another paper today.. last one to go on thur evening and i can enjoy le! wait.. i am already enjoying le actually.. gonna watch movie tomorrow! 

today's paper.. quite all right i guess.. it was an open-book exam.. i brought in my notes and such.. but i was trying very hard to make reference to the notes when answering the questions.. but in the end, 99% of my answers were written without the help of the notes.. amazing right?

darn irritating mans.. the prof was like making announcements, toking to fellow faculty, and clarifying with students their doubts.. his voice was so loud tt it was quite distracting.. can't he set his exam paper in a more understandable manner so tt he do not need to clarify during the exam? zzz..

and so i went for a run when i reached home at 11 jus now.. jus a short warm-up run, to build up the momentum again for the next few days of runs.. my speed has dropped significantly.. dropped by 35 seconds.. tt's bad.. hope to gain back my speed soon!

i need to get back my shape as well! awww.. i have a short term goal for now.. being able to velcro all the way when i don my no.4 uniform next tuesday! hahas.. 

till then, Vinz

yet another one..

so today is d+6.. let's see..

have nth much to say abt today's paper.. jus tt Dr Teo chut stunts again.. come out steel truss :O 

and and.. she said will come out theory questions.. but end up? two short and sweet questions on quantities taking-off.. theory questions were nowhere to be found! made me go prepare for it.. argh!

tomorrow will be another paper.. and one more on thur and i am free lo! time to shed some kilos le.. gonna restart my running regime probably on wed morning~ :D

tomorrow.. might be the last time i am seeing you in the next dunno how many months.. hmms.. how how?

A la prochaine, Vinz

time heals?

well, people says "time heals"..

true.. but the scar will always remain there.. no?

i thought of what had happened some time back.. 

it was jus a tweak of thinking to make myself better.. no?

and now thinking about it.. i was disappointed.. i am still disappointed.. at how things turned out to be.. 

there might be one day i will just _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ ..

ok.. who cares anyway.. 

what's up?

a week ago i had no pre-exam stresses/syndromes..

now in the midst of the exam period, i have no exam syndrome as well.. aiyos.. this is so abnormal!

anyway, macbook is confirm coming le! sis has been wanting to get one and here's her wish come true! cools :D

and how about this?

most likely i am gonna get my hands on one soon! so look forward to it :D

i think singnet rox mans.. a solution indeed! (:

so it was d+2 today.. it was quite all right i guess.. now it's time for the next two papers..

today seems like a happy day for me..  so many happy things today!

A la prochaine~

edit: jus saw the result for my programming practical exam.. i got a sweet full marks! :p

how about this?

i have got an additional ambition..

to own one lot of berkshire hathaway shares..

erms.. lemme own ten shares also happy lar..

will add an "ambition" sidebox soon! hahas..

anyway, tt aside.. i am wondering what is holding me back.. 

a quote to share..

"Even if you are on the right track, you'll get run over if you just sit there."

- Will Rogers

d-day

so today is d-day again.. my fifth d-day so far in nus..

heavily defeated..

cool eh?

hmms.. for you to interpret..

if you interpret the way i do, this picture says it all..

"life is a maze"

your priority?

the past few days yd, mh and i have been studying together in school..

one conversation we had on thursday left me pondering, even up till today..

if i were to classify the topic of our conversation tt day, it would be "priorities"..

in life, we sure have alot of things which we want to accomplish and what not.. and we all know tt time is a scarce resource we have.. and as such, we would need to prioritise these things which we have in mind tt we want to accomplish.. am i right so far?

as with money, maybe we can categorise these tasks into "needs" and "wants"; "must-haves" and "good-to-haves".. right?

back to the conversation we had.. i was appalled how people can mix up the "needs" and "wants" and the like.. alot of times, people are guilty of tt, am i right? 

it seems normal.. BUT in tt particular situation, i guess it was quite obvious what was a "must-do" and what was a "good-to-do".. time was critical in tt situation; not much time to spare you know? why would there be a mix up, i have been wondering..

maybe till i speak to more people on this topic, i will still be left with many question marks.. so much have to say about priorities..

p.s. in tt situation, it was not only being responsible to oneself, but responsible to a few people.. if it was being responsible to oneself, i wouldn't care much i guess.. but it is not..

mysterious visitor..

is tt you?

a change..

i am saying goodbye to them tomorrow.. they have been with me for a year or so le..

oh ya! i think i am very lucky today! wOooooooHoOOOOOOooooo~ :D 

btw, i have jus gotten back my programming lab 5 marks.. haiz.. 14/15.. careless mistake again..  hmms.. i have been avoiding measurements.. not gonna do so tomorrow le.. hahas

sometimes when more ain't good..

agree?

i have so much things to blog about.. but.. i dunno what's holding me back.. laziness again? or do i know tt once i decided to blog, i would spend a significant amount of time, thus not spending time on studying?

talking about studying.. i have no idea how to prepare myself for this exam.. you see.. 6 modules, 5 papers during this exam period (hr mod is gone).. and all 6 modules are open-book exam! good or bad you say lehs? really no idea..

yday i plurked about this.. "i shall remember how you treat me.. don't blame me if i reciprocate it.. after all, being reciprocal is still in me after all these years." putting this plurk entry on this blog would make it more permanent than in plurk.. you know who you are if you are reading this.. ok..

i shall backdate my blog entries when exams' over.. i still dunno what i am gonna do after exams.. one thing for sure the week after exam i will be wearing my coverall, operating the howitzer, and what not..

Miluji te, Vinz

phew!

feel like getting my hand on one too! but then.. 

what a big relief.. finished hr test today.. and also programming practical test..

didn't manage to finish the second question for hr.. haiz..

as for programming test.. it was quite a breeze though.. managed to complete everything and get the game running in less than one hour.. quite good right? but when i reached home jus now, i found out tt i made a stupid careless mistake.. let's see..

----------
int roll_1 = 1 + (int)(Math.random()* 6); //first die roll
int roll_2 = 1 + (int)(Math.random()* 6); //second die roll
return roll_1 + roll_1; //return the sum of the two dice roll
----------

jialat mans.. i was supposed to roll two dice, and give the summation of the dice roll.. however, instead of roll_1 + roll_2, i wrote roll_1 + roll_1.. OMG mans.. no wonder i only get even number dice roll.. no wonder it's so easy for the players to win the game..

hmms.. i think you are really in stealth mode.. really..

till then, Vinny

three saturdays ago..

bonjour!

this morning while brushing my teeth, i suddenly thought of something tt seems so logical to me..

three saturdays ago 24th october we we at cindy's place doing contech report.. it was getting very late and so we decided to call it a day..

and so, it was by usual combination of bus rides to and fro sembawang.. 980/167 then transfer to the bus in the top pic..

however, the usual bus ride was not usual after all.. i thought i saw you on the bus.. but then i brushed off the notion as i reasoned "how could it be possible"..

but today i found a possible reason.. jus take a look at where the bus terminates.. and you will know what i meant..

if that is so.. well, tt's one of my regrets.. regrets again.. all it takes would be a "are you...???", isn't it?

anyway.. i am not sure who has been reading my blog.. so people.. do tag me and leave some comments okies? i would like to know you all! (:

A la prochaine, Vinz

confused

cute eeyore right? :D however i have been wanting to have tt grey eeyore, similar to kl de.. hers is very nice mans!

so today was quite occupied.. with scheduling report.. glad tt we are nearly done with it.. and it was a fun process i would say! lols.. challenging the extremes of reducing the page count.. every little bit of words matter okies? hahas.. and microsoft word can drive ppl crazy.. so "smart"..

amidst editing the report, i was thinking.. however, it seems quite distant.. i am not too sure..

whole day long, my neck was kept long.. but you were nowhere to be seen.. stealth mode again? please don't! (:

i have jus gotten back my marks for programming lab 4.. 30/30.. i should feel happy abt it right? but the fact tt alot of ppl score high marks makes me feel indifferent.. how competitive it is for this module i wonder..

i can't wait for holidays to come.. i am so gonna make it a fulfilling one - realising what i have wanting to do! 

so what's up this week?

so this is week 13 liaos.. 

blurberryy.. it's hr test and programming exam you are having this wednesday.. not ht1101 or fb1101 you know? what have you been doing this weekend? time to pull socks liaos (as quoted by yh)..

talking abt yh.. this morning i told her abt my dreams last night.. lols.. the dreams were so random..

tests and exams aside, there's also scheduling report due on wednesday, and measurement tutorial on friday.. 

amongst all these, i still have some forms to fill in: probation clearance and ACR.. on top of these two, there's submission of application for internship - by friday.. 

how i wish to get over all these soon, so tt i can start studying (note: not revising but studying) for the finals.. contech seems madness..

anyway.. i think i will be making a trip down to uhc early morning tomorrow.. needa go for a checkup to see what's wrong with my shoulder/arm.. the pain has been there since the injury in july and i have not sought any medical advice/treatment yet.. ought to do something abt it right?

A la prochaine, Vinz

blog more!

i guess i shall blog more frequently..

and to make my blog a lil more interesting, here are some pictures..

kinda dumb lar, this picture.. so reminds me of some daily stuffs.. lols

what's next? here's an all-time classic:

jus an update on my "internship, to do or not to do?" dilemma.. after weighing the pros and cons and talking to friends like yurong, it seems that the pros outweigh the cons.. and so, i have made the first move - by updating my resume this morning! now left with cover letter and i am ready to submit the application.. hope it gets approved~

one last thing.. i have received thru mail a "present" today.. it comes in an envelope with "ON GOVERNMENT SERVICE" imprints.. guess what is it?!

sweet dreams!

woke up nearly an hour ago.. 

had a sweet dream mans! :D though i kinda forget the exact details, it is after all what i have been yearning for.. how i wish this dream can come true!

so what have i been doing since i woke up? PROGRAMMING!! this idiotic module.. dunno make us learn recursion for what.. you can say it's an appreciative topic for iterative functions.. but then, it has been killing me! yucks..

anyway, the programming is done liaos.. all thanks to

• Wiener, R., Pinson, L.J. (2000). Fundamentals of OOP and data structures in Java. Cambridge University Press.

this module - i am loving and hating it, both at the same time.. how ironic it is..

some thoughts, again..

two days ago, i plurked something..

“这一切，会不会来的有点迟。。 会不会太迟。。你觉得呢？”

first, i came one year late.. next, things were not good in the beginning.. and now, why things only started to change? or has it not changed yet?

not going for the course earlier has since become one of my regrets.. yes, i have several regrets.. reflecting on it, these regrets are largely caused by my _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _...

many a time, i have given up chances bestowed upon me..

there's a saying.. it's better to be late than never.. how true is it?

today is the day..

makes me so wonder.. are we fated? how nice :D

hallucination..

last evening i was hallucinating.. i guess it was due to fatigue bahs.. hallucinating due to tiredness.. it was so weird lors.. my friend was with me at tt time, and i asked whether he heard someone calling my name..

it was quite common when i was in the army.. lols.. but after i ord, the last time i remember encountering such situation was during the agm..

anyway.. yday was the programming mid-term test.. tricky paper it is.. and in just a one-hour paper, there are already two erratums.. how sucky it is.. i had completed one of the affected questions, only to be told a few minutes later that there was error in it.. and because of tt, i had to redo the question.. i originally wrote one whole chunk for the answer.. and when i redo, the answer i wrote was jus a few lines.. :s

this is not the first time erratums occur in this module.. there were even errors/omissions in lab assignments and what not.. please mans.. i hope not to see all these again.. it's causing stress to people who have completed their work, and then be told that there are errors.. 

next week is gonna be busy!! two presentations in two consecutive days.. and many things to settle!

au revoir!

some thoughts, again..

"life is a maze"

same thing again.. i have been wondering.. would it be easier if we don't know one another at all? would it be easier if i don't have my current status at the current social setting? i am still thinking how to tackle.. tell me how...

je.. je...

i am back

before you know, i might be mia-ing from blogging for a few weeks again..

anyway.. there's a compelling reason for me to blog today.. tt's why i am here!

so what is it about?

i had a talk with someone this morning.. it is abt some persistent issue tt the we are facing.. 

responsbility, thoughtfulness, acceptability and all these.. must really give credits to this person.. 

all these, coupled with what was discussed during the wednesday class, sets me into thinking again - "nature or nurture".. 

as compared to the peers of this "someone", would it bring us back to the "stereotyping"?

so.. what say you?

regrets?

how many a time have you not done something only to regret later?

it has happened to me alot of times.. latest addition, i can say, am i not gonna do something now? if i don't do it now, will i regret? i have been keeping all these to myself.. confused..

anyways.. some updates..

went to national museum today.. didn't really get to explore much.. 2 hours ain't enough! a few weeks back when i went to acm, i also spent less than 2 hours there (coz i went there quite late) and didn't visit all the exhibits there.. well well, i will definitely be back there!

yday the conversation between ah long and his student was quite hilarious...
ah long: 你跟守卫说是签证部门的 michelle 叫你两点半到大使馆受反问的
student: michelle 是什么东西？
ah long: michelle 是个人。。

it didn't carry much impact initially, untill boss walked past and iterated what he said "michelle 是个人"..

vincent is emo now..

time flies, indeed.. i am not sure how am i gonna describe my feelings now..

let's see.. though i only know you for less than a month and moreover, interacted with you for only 5 days or so, the fact tt you are leaving is making me feel sad.. tears almost came out of my eyes just now.. i dunno why.. but then, it has been nice having you around.. hmms.. time was ticking away i felt.. haizz.. i wish the time stopped there..

nid-term test..

i failed.. haiz.. nvm bahs, work harder for the next test!!

this evening i saw a fellow iron horse.. should have worn the iron horse shirt, then he would have recognised me.. he saw me a few times before, and find me familiar but can't confirm if it's me.. hahas.. had a good time catching up.. 

seems like alot of things have been happening back at office.. hmms..

i am enjoying it..

you didn't see wrongly.. i am enjoying it! enjoying invigilation.. to the extend tt i wish the exam period were longer.. now tt i am finally used to the life of invigilation, i am scared tt i will have a hard time adjusting back to office life.. but being back to office is a good thing as well..

today after work, i saw somebody who looks like yh on the bus.. i nearly wanted to call out her name, but i thought impossible lars.. lols..

anyway, i am wondering.. how come people can continue sitting in the exam room when they are done with all the exam questions? a 3-hour paper, and some completed it in 1.5 hrs, but still don't wanna leave? sit there, stare blankly.. dun uds..

more exam tales..

start of a new week of invigilation..

only 3 candidates in the morning session.. shiok right.. then only 1 came.. super shiok right? lols

but hors.. for many sessions i have been thinking "i don't uds why people can actually skip their exams!!" pls tell me why..

went for lunch.. i was kenna "said" lors.. what i told my friend what i was having for lunch.. hahas..

afternoon session.. saw crazy people.. sth wrong with tt guy? i dunno..

back to office and i TC asked if i saw her friend.. of course i saw her friend! hahas..

exam tales

#1 happened on wednesday.. this person came for exam without bringing stationeries.. not even a pen.. excuse me, i thought it's a norm for manager to have a pen always?

#2 same exam session.. this person did not bring any photo ID with him.. then he said "i have my credit card with me.. it has my name.." what a joke.. how about me charging 1k to your credit card?

#3 this incident on thursday totally left me mad.. this candidate wittingly took the question paper from the original seat to another seat of her choice at the back row.. behaving like a primary school kid! must treat her like kid then she moved back to the original seat.. 

please mans.. so old already, still dunno what is expected of them in an exam? are the instructions too simple for you tt you can't understand?

filling in the details on the answer booklet is another problem also.. candidates are supposed to tick the questions attempted in tt booklet, as well as tick the questions attempted in the entire exam.. some of them just don't complete these two sections.. if you are lucky, they complete just one.. things are getting better, coz most of them would know tt they hafta complete these two sections, after having sat for at least one paper during this exam period liaos..

other that these, i also have candidates bringing in food to the exam room.. banana, biscuits, and even Ferrero Rocher amongst others.. power right..

rehiz bs

it has been 3 weeks since i closed down my blog at wp, and now i am back at bs again..

so what have i been up to during these three weeks?

work resumed in the first week of june.. friday was courier day.. not a usual courier day.. but a courier day following the OD weekend! meaning, huge stacks of application forms, transcripts and what not.. i still remember last yr, my first friday at work was also OD courier day.. madness.. but no worries, together as a team, we survived! lols.. invigilation on tt saturday.. someone just made me so fed up.. hahas..

spent monday and tuesday of the second week of june at lmsc.. well, what more can i say? met up with fellow HOs for dinner on thursday after their last cycle of lmsc.. time spent was great!

friday ~ sunday were spent at pulau ubin for atc/stc.. i wonder much distance did i clock, walking in and out for dunno how many times.. my cadets.. i am so proud of you all! you all faced up to the challenge and made it through the camp.. not forgetting tt the campsite is called Camp Resilience.. it's definitely a test of your resilience! 

oh ya.. how could i forget the wednesday tt same week? finally saw TC.. her interests really caught my attention.. hahas.. the first words she said were "what are you playing?".. 

moving on to the third week.. 10 sessions of examination i had invigilated this week.. AWWWWWW!!! if you were a candidate, you will want the exam to last longer.. but if you were an invigilator, you will want the exam to finish quickly! it's no child's play mans.. i still have another 10 sessions to go for next week!! i will post interesting happenings during the exam sessions soon.. stay tuned mans!